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    My Ups & Downs
    Saturday, January 29, 2011

    These few days I have been pretty down thinking of my National Team Final Selection. I went through quite alot of trouble, causing ppl inconvienence to finally able to swop my shift. Thanks Tim and Shange for making it happened.

    However, what I didnt know was the selection results were out and there is no final selection. As much as I know how unfit and lousy I have became, I was still hoping for miracle to happen. Karen once told me when we were at Australia NTL 2 years ago,:" I think if you continue training hard, you will become a good player."

    I guess I did not train hard enough. After IVP last yr, I basically stopped trg to concentrate on Final Year stuff. Found a job shortly after, soon after, there was little time available for training without feeling exhausted.Oh wells, I guess my Touch Glory days are over, so are my plans for Europe.

    However, like what I told Alex, I think God or whoever is looking over us seems doting on me. After the annoucement of not being selected,I was given free food, free shopping and the company of friends and Wii.Free food from Ippudo Japanese Restaurant and free shopping at Mandarin Gallery.=)

    Basically we were treated like VIPs at Mandarin Gallery. Our meals at Ippudo was charged to Mandarin Hotel.And there was people dressed in smart black giving out $50 vouchers to the VIPs. Vouchers can be used in almost any store in Mandarin Gallery.Most importantly, no minimum purchase.

    After that we went to EMax Cineleisure and Wii our night away. =)

    I feel much better now. Thank you.

    Sad-ed
    Thursday, January 27, 2011

    Feeling pretty down today. I don't really know why.

    I guess mainly is because I m afraid to face the reality. My dream of returning to the National Team seems really slim. As much as I don't want to admit, the one NTU captain is now no different from other laoyapok players. I just can't keep up with the pace after stopping touch for more than 6 mths. It's like my 6 yrs of hardworking and effort just disappeared.

    The worse thing is with my irregular working hours, I m always tired and distracted. :( oh wells. Final selection is this sat. Trying to get someone to cover my shift is like begging someone to adopt pui pui without a head.

    One thing good and bad about this job is you can to see how selfless and how selfish ppl can get. Some ppl can just be so understanding to help you out when need them to, despite it's not in their call of duty. Some ppl can generously provide you resources when they know that you need it more that they do. And some ppl are simply nice without complaints.

    The bad thing is you can to see how selfish some ppl can get. Despite helping them before, trying to get help from them is like trying to buy pui pui without head and legs. Some ppl hogged resources and only share when their pockets are not big enough. Some ppl always expect favors yet never return. Some ppl are just simply thiefs, stealing your resources to save themselves. Some ppl are just understanding.

    Morale of the story is that with the pile of selfish ppl, will I be able to change my shift?

    Will I be selected?'

    Fantastic Operator and Wos
    Monday, January 17, 2011

    Today, I realized that as much as I would like to stay superior to all, I still prefer to be nice and friendly to all.
    I was once told an officer Aka me shouldn't get too close to the operators as it might somehow invoke jealously of those who were left behind. And it happened once last time to whomever I don't know. An officer was being complained of bias-ness Aka favorism etc to a particular operator Aka his friend. And what happened to the both of them is... I seriously have no idea.

    Back to my topic, today I realized that no matter how true the above incident may be, I still think tt there's no harm making a friend or two in this harsh and stressful environment. It's because of friends, you will be more willing to go to work. It's because of friend, you will be more willing to push that extra mile without wanting anything in return.


    K.. And C.., although I know nobody actually read my blog, Still thank you for going tt extra mile when you guys could hv just leave n go home after a sucky day of multiple strokings. Still, you guys did well today and thank you.

    National Team Dilemma
    Sunday, January 16, 2011

    The month of Jan 2011. Big Selection for National Team. I dont exactly think I can make it to the last 2 trainings due to work but I'll try my best to change shift or what.

    As much as I dont want to accept the fact that I have de-proved since my NTU days, I have. And together with working shift work, I am afraid that I might lose my spot in the National Team. Sob sob.

    I am just not as fast and alert on the field like I used to. And my stamina sucks!!! In addition, I am always lack of sufficient rest due to my irregular work cycle. I have already went straight to training a couple of times after my night shift and puke a couple of times after or during training. My health is not catching up with all the expectation to perform. =(

    Nowadays, everyone kept asking me to quit my job. As much as I agree with them about the no life part, I am still not ready to quit. Not just yet I guess.


    We shall see.......